For some time, I’ve been unhappy. This was a difficult realization to swallow. I like to pretend I’m self-aware. I’ve known I’m not where I want to be ultimately in life, but I’m getting there, swimming steadily, treading occasionally, but always content with my speed.
However, my crisis came to a head several weeks ago at a conference. I had been looking forward to this conference for some time. The topic centered on my personal research interests in my field (mathematics0. But after two days of sitting through academics grandstanding and discussing minutia I gave not a damn about and seeing the passion these people displayed for the subject, I realized this was not my future, this was not my happiness, and, by God, this was not me. But this was theirs.Read More