Prelude: I wrote this post after returning to my hometown years ago. It's rather sad, which is why I never posted it. Now after almost two full years after writing it, I feel mostly removed from it. I hardly remember feeling this way. My current headspace is much sounder and therefore am finally comfortable sharing it.
I was thrilled to be coming home. It had been a year, and the last time I came home was not for fun. It was going to be relaxing and exciting to be curled up in my old bed. It was going to be for a while, and not just a long weekend. I was even happy to be back in a shared room with my sister, just like old times.